Heartbreak is good for my heart

It's true, that's how I really feel. Because of some things I've seen people I love go through, and things i'm going through myself recently, i've noticed while it is extremely painful to be heart broken, I have found myself seeking quiet times with God, reading encouraging books, sharing with friends more than I might normally.

I have had days where I don't really feel like doing much of anything, but that's not really an option. A song that i've loved since forever says "so here I am again, willing to be opened up and broken, like a flower in the rain...." That is a hard place for me to reach--to be willing to be broken. I don't ever want to be broken, that is a place of vulnerability-something I like to avoid most days.

When I was at dinner last night, I was talking to someone who is really going through a hard time in life. Sitting there, I almost started to cry as I listened to all the hurt coming from this person. All the things she is feeling, it was overwhelming because I felt like there was really nothing I could do to help ease the pain. What amazed me even more was her conclusion--she said if she could help one person through what she has gone through, then she knows it is all worth it. Wow--what perspective!

It's always wonderful to realize that God is always in control of whatever life throws at me. There is a difference in knowing it in my head, and knowing it in my heart. In my case, I am learning so many things about who God is--and how He loves me. I read the other day "God is not shocked at who you are, or the choices you make. He knew you from beginning to end, and STILL chose to die for you, and love you unconditionally." That sentence made me smile, in the midst of it all, if i'm okay with God, then it'll all be okay in the end.
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